Nevermind
Let me talk bt some stuff that I have pondered about these few days. Many due to words by my frens and wandering thoughts during CNY period.
1) Basis Of Mahjong : Why was Mahjong invented in the first place.
I think its pretty obvious, as a Gambling tool, what else? Primitive LEGO?. And why is it so successful? Mainly becos of the different combinations of winning set possible, making the human mind churns out tons of tactics to win the other player out of their money, also the main objective of the game.
The main question I'm baffled here, is that ppl are telling me that Mahjong can be played without having to gamble. Its possible, say just a round or two or maybe a day. But prolonged play? Dun kid bt it.
Mahjong without the basis of gambling TOTALLY REMOVED its most basic incentive to even play in the long run. You spent hours on it, you excrete bain juice on it, and you get excited on it. In the end of the day, you gain nth out of it. Fun? Sure, one or two times of playing it. But can you become a total pro in it? Its impossible.
Money is such a powerful incentive in the game, that all kinds of skills can be developed in order to win it. And also, it gives u a sense of excitement in the game, which in turn brings out ur fullest potential to play. Its like life, whereby humans fight again all odds in order to survive.
Imagine Mahjong without gambling. Ppl will keep doing all kinds of stunts like Shi San Yao, or sabortage the rest. Cos there is no cost involved. All four players will be stuck at the most basic level, and can never bring the best out of the game called Mahjong. It is also a common rule that beginners have to pay a so called "tution fees", in the form of losing, in order to gain true insights and growth into Mahjong.
Mahjong without Gambling, its just like working the whole day for free. I guess the inventor will also get sad bt it man. If it comes to a stage where ppl view it in such a way, lets just all throw it away and play it at Settlers Cafe.
2) Explosion : Finally Triggered
Recently, one of my fren was quite pissed off with me alr. So it was a session of MSN lecturing, and all I could do was to say sorry and accept it cos I agreed fully with wat my fren said.
Yes, I hate the first 3 mths of every year, as they nv seem to disappoint me with lowdowns in life one after another. It was like that during my JC, same during NSF, and still the same during last year. This year was no different.
I guess the saying in chinese was rite. "冰凍三尺﹐非一日之寒" So my fren has tolerated it for quite some time le. But my nua nua mood continues, seemly not getting better. Its like a feeling that I was sucked out of a previous normal lifestyle, and to adapt to the current lifestyle needs a new rythem in it.
I has been trying real hard at it to tackle the problem. Finding a job to preoccupy myself from mondays to fridays, taking up Japanese Lessons, helping out my parents during weekends. And getting a relaxing period each week by cycling and going fishing.However, the side effect is showing. I dun feel like going out that often. Even if I do, there must be a "want" to go and that it be planned wisely. I also am taking a breather from being the usual one to initiate outings. I guess I must be tired each week in and out. And I kindaf feel sian b4 I get a new insight into life.
I guess it will come when I get into Uni, when I get new frens, see new gals. That will create some sparkles in my life, to start my engine again. For now, I just feel like reminicing in the past I had, thinking of the direction my life is going, looking for new fishing spots, and just gazing into the sky and sea which I have missed so much.
I appreciate that my fren is trying to get some sense in me. To show compromise to others which who have shown to us. I also think that my problem shd not affect others. So its ok that ppl get fed up with me, for I also think I'm getting onto ppl's nerves rite now.
But the main thing of this post I wanna say is.
Nevermind
posted by Iori at 6:20 AM
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